Wednesday, February 04, 2004
Life in 7 days
Funny how, exactly one week later, I am still skipping lectures on a Wednesday to blog. Funny how, despite all the effort I've put into getting my life in order, there's little to no visible change to my current situation. Funny how, no matter what the year, no matter where I am, what I do, I will always miss the past and long for it again.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm really doing what I'm doing for the right purpose. Sure, I've headed a few small committees at the parish level in recent years, but I've never really been an integral part of a school organisation. Despite my belief that leadership is something I gravitate towards naturally, I've realised that none of my previous ECAs have ever allowed me to be a student leader. Not the Chess Club in ACPS, the Drama Club in ACS(I) or the Choir in ACJC.
But now that I've landed a position on the Executive Committee of the NTU Catholic Students' Apostolate, I'm wondering why I ever ran in the first place. There are times when I just want to give it all up and alienate myself (see: Kakita), bitch and swear (see: delenn), or simply leave the country altogether (see: noelbynature). Of course, not for the same reasons.
I guess what I'm trying to say is--I'm sick of this shit, and I only have myself to blame for all this.
But, things have to go on, so here this rant ends.
Post-rant thoughts
- Has it already been two years? Apparently, yes, because my first post on CWM was on the 3rd of January, 2001. Thank you all who have ever passed by these portals and those who have left their mark in one way or another.
- It was a nice, pleasant surprise to meet astronaut at Millenia Walk Burger King on the Monday Hari Raya holiday. I would have loved to spend more time with her, but my meeting ended just as hers begun. Maybe one day we'll actually find time to get together, yeah?
Funny how, exactly one week later, I am still skipping lectures on a Wednesday to blog. Funny how, despite all the effort I've put into getting my life in order, there's little to no visible change to my current situation. Funny how, no matter what the year, no matter where I am, what I do, I will always miss the past and long for it again.
Sometimes I wonder if I'm really doing what I'm doing for the right purpose. Sure, I've headed a few small committees at the parish level in recent years, but I've never really been an integral part of a school organisation. Despite my belief that leadership is something I gravitate towards naturally, I've realised that none of my previous ECAs have ever allowed me to be a student leader. Not the Chess Club in ACPS, the Drama Club in ACS(I) or the Choir in ACJC.
But now that I've landed a position on the Executive Committee of the NTU Catholic Students' Apostolate, I'm wondering why I ever ran in the first place. There are times when I just want to give it all up and alienate myself (see: Kakita), bitch and swear (see: delenn), or simply leave the country altogether (see: noelbynature). Of course, not for the same reasons.
I guess what I'm trying to say is--I'm sick of this shit, and I only have myself to blame for all this.
But, things have to go on, so here this rant ends.
Post-rant thoughts
- Has it already been two years? Apparently, yes, because my first post on CWM was on the 3rd of January, 2001. Thank you all who have ever passed by these portals and those who have left their mark in one way or another.
- It was a nice, pleasant surprise to meet astronaut at Millenia Walk Burger King on the Monday Hari Raya holiday. I would have loved to spend more time with her, but my meeting ended just as hers begun. Maybe one day we'll actually find time to get together, yeah?
